my kind's your kind

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Mon, 23 Feb 2004 02:14:35 GMT

i have a new journal, this one is way old.

it's located here

its friends only, so comment and i will gladly add you if you arent already

oh say say say

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 04:26:57 GMT

tonight was so fun me & fred hung out at her house and she helped me make a neato skirt but it needs to be repaired and we pranced around and modeled in thermal underwear. how cool is that?

my best friend is the coolest kid ever, cos we laugh like so hard i nearly cry like the whole time we hang out.

i was looking at my journal entry from one year ago. the snow day. that makes me sad. yeah. i remember when josh told me about what his mom said about me. i remember how i cared what people thought about me, even people who didn't know me and judged me like that. now i could care less, i'm much more opinionated and much more me. and so much less of anyone else.

i know from my own experience that you have to really not care about a person in order for you to shut them out of your life completely. dont lie to me, its your fault.

that's for several people.

it's the fact that we're gonna get down to it..

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 20:16:24 GMT

something about this time of year, between february and march makes me so optimistic. it's like i almost can't help smiling.

maybe it's the fact that when i look outside i think of the past and think of what i once had. and i guess something struck me, that one day i will feel that way again. and i could even make it better if i wanted.

and i'm not alone.

<3

WAIT..THEY DON'T LOVE YOU LIKE I LOVE YOU

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 00:10:04 GMT

WHY AM I SO ATTRACTED TO HISPANIC GUYS OMG WOW

i have a headache
my dream made me so melancholy now.
i want a hug.
i want a lover.

roll on top of me baby yeah just roll roll roll

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 23:23:18 GMT

no i dont enjoy hypocrites
or when people dont know what in the world theyre talking about
but pretend they do wiaoehuwe
say what you want but only i know what you told me and that you've used the same lines over and over.

my hair looks so gross
i'm cutting my bangs soon
i like the classes i chose next year

i have to think about what i want to do when im older
i also have to think about what i want to do now
i havent quite found my 'niche' and oh yes i hate that word
thanks to bio i hate you die.

happy valentine's day loves.

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 04:03:37 GMT

this is old but i've never posted one before. <3xox hope everyone had a great day love you.

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

just one thing makes me forget..

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 20:10:03 GMT

so yesterday was the last swim meet. it's kind of sad because i actually liked swimming this year a lot.

i only swam in a relay but still it was cool. i'm gonna miss it! how sad. i need a new activity because i am going to be so bored.

these are from the bus on the way back.

kim and jen. yeah cos i was sitting on them the whole time and no one noticed haha <3

hahah kim looks like she is angrily licking meh

hmmmm. haha. we took a lot of pictures. *eeww bald spot*

eww kimmmm hahah

ryannn. this is a funny pic haha

this was my view the whole bus ride while squishing jen and kim.

my hurr after jen braided it woowoo. it hurtt

the end.

so yeah. other than that drivers ed is boring and i need to print out a current event right now. yea tomorrow is friday!@* haute. guess who's working on valentine's day sat haha. <3 be my valentine, everyone.

i wanted you, i needed you

Wed, 11 Feb 2004 19:42:06 GMT

i love today. you know why? cos i love:

getting an a and a smiley face sticker on my english test
hugs
last swim meet tonight
friends
learning nothing in mr. mo's class
half empty buses
intellectual conversations/being right!!
not having a lot of homework

today i'm in a really good mood. it doesn't feel like a wednesday though. i'm happy with many aspects right now. this new semester seems promising.

get me some tylenol

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 11:17:41 GMT

i am back and better than ever yeaahwhat.

<3

i like tea in the morning.
school won't be fun today.

i'm a vicious admirer.

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 22:39:48 GMT

a sickness is plaguing my house. so i'm in hiding. and i'm not allowed to eat either. i wash my hands hourly. i fear being sick.

snoopy wants a kiss. but really i do. sigh. sadly there is no love in my life.

youre such a girl.

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 22:27:58 GMT

i like all my new classes a lot. mr.morowski is really cool. although i don't know how much i will enjoy chemistry at 730 in the morning.

tomorrow is my test on a separate peace. i'm scared.

ouch. i hate thinking about some things. i dont know why i even try to understand certain people. i'm sure they know me well enough to know i analyze anything and everything. but some people just aren't worth the effort, although they may think they are.

it's one thing to just be a complicated person. but it's another to play mind games and confuse people for no apparent reason. goodbye? who knows.

done caring. xo

sometimes i feel like i'm practically begging to be understood.

you started the fire in my heart

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 02:24:31 GMT

so my icon is scary just to break the cycle of stupid looking serious icons. so ha ha in your face. support the mad icon look, haha <3

today i went to the mall with suzanne. i bought new shoes, earrings, lip gloss & eyeshadow stuff i'll probably never use, and a shirt. yeah i am a shopaholic and it makes me happy to an unbelievable extent.

then i received a phone call from the lovely macho morgan. "look at him..he looks like an untamed beast" haha youre a crazy boy, you make me laugh.

we lost the meet against toms river north tonight. i didn't swim. its kinda sad. i got my hooded sweatshirt so whatever its all good haha. i'm sure kim and i will live in ours for now on

tomorrow=ailseyuiwqeyawe yeayea. new classes. yikesss.

i have my plan for valentines day with my bff. ow ow. paper shredder likewhat.

you know the drill.

Tue, 03 Feb 2004 20:25:55 GMT

i almost missed my bus again today..yikes.

i'm so glad finals are over. history seemed to go okay.

swim meet in an hour. tomorrow is transition day. amazing. going shopping i hope cos i need to desperately. lately i've been thinking of what to do to occupy my time, something new. i'm silly cos i always always always say the same thing. so repetitive. so dishonest. sigh.

i'm going to miss mr. williams class. "candid shoe photos" today haha. i'm gonna miss meghan. and our lunch crew. and telling them my little isignificant stories and problems.

second semester:bring it on,bitch.

it's raining and i like it..

x
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First real kiss: summer after 8th grade
First job: lifeguarding
First screen name: rosie64 my brother made it when i was like 7
First self-purchased album: no idea
First pets: fish
First piercing: ears.
First big trip: disney world
Last big car ride: maryland
Last kiss: october
Last movie seen: the perfect score
Last beverage drank: coke
Last food consumed: salad
Last phone call: macho morgan left a message.
Last TV show watched: my big fat obnoxious fiance
Last shoes worn: pink frog sandals
Last song played: boys night out-hold on tightly, let go lightly
Last item bought: i can't remember
Last disappointment: friday
Last ice cream eaten: vanilla ice cream saturday night
Last shirt worn: blue and white striped shirt
Last good cry: last week i think.

i carry on without your face..

Mon, 02 Feb 2004 21:54:16 GMT

math & bio finals today. i think i did well on math. but bio was really difficult. hm. i hope it is curved. last night i talked to my dad and it helped me put everything into perspective. about basically my life in general.

everything feels really comfortable right now. i like it this way, i hate all the ups & downs.

jon gives the best advice in the whole world ever ^2836237623. yeah. thank you.

tonight i have to studystudystudy for history. took pictures today, no idea why. i guess to break the monotony of studying.

and i saw why they say beauty comes from the inside

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 20:18:15 GMT

i am confused. im gonna go study if it kills me.

i ran out of index cards.

our memory defeats us all

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 11:39:05 GMT

i don't think i can function on 5 hours of sleep anymore.

novice meet today i'm leaving in a halfhour. i hope kim is there. i need caffeine desperately right now. i don't know how i'm going to study for finals when i get home.

2 weeks and all of this will be over. i remember when i thought swimming was so wonderful and looked forward to it. now i look forward to sleeping because i never get to.

i want something tangible. nothing feels real cos every day is a blur when you look like you're going to pass out all day but you never get a chance to.

i hate being surrounded with people who can't seem to understand me.

every single thing you do.

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 11:27:21 GMT

its a little toooo colddd.

:(((

im eating waffles. and chocolate milk. cos im crazy. & i do not want to swim today

rescue me?

you've stolen my heart.

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 22:35:37 GMT

we dissected the pig in bio. so i've felt nauseous all day
especially when danny said the brown stuff inside looked like gravy
and sage said the small intestine looked like chinese food
i wanted to die
except not really
but i could barely eat after that

and on the bus suzanne lied to me
and told me she had arthritis
because that crazy girl wrote 'ow' on her knuckle.
im gonna get you back ok. with my made up stories you always believe.

i am so tired
i want to do my hw so i can talk to matt later.
:)))

watching your eyelashes close and twitch

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 02:05:25 GMT

uh,

to say i have a crush would be a huge

understatement.

<3

wow.

how can i say i love you back?

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 20:58:26 GMT

so i failed my biology test. smooth. heres to being stupid in an honors class.

i used to be different, though. i didn't have to try and i never had to worry about grades. not that i dont care now, but when i do poorly i choose not to do anything about it. it bothers me. it just really isn't worth it anymore. everything is so stressful because i want to live up to my own expectations but my failure to do so has gotten me so discouraged over the past few months.

i just feel like i'm trying so hard yet i'm accomplishing nothing. it really isn't paying off. and i'm really not enjoying myself.

i have to get more involved. i have to stop being lazy. i have to volunteer and stay after and care about my grades and care about getting in honor society next year and care about being smart doing well on the SAT's learning vocabulary have to buy SAT prep computer games notecards take classes because i "dont do well on standardized tests" have to read more study more learn more care more be happy less.

smile.

you dont do it on purpose but you make me shake

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 04:13:05 GMT

so im up at 11:18 talking to the lovely jess. i'm going to be her backup date ha ha. great plans--business cards. we are on fire.

ahh i am so sorry matt, i was going to call you back but i didn't want to wake you up.

so overall this weekend was nice.

exoskeletal

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 03:55:50 GMT

i am awake, a lonely dreamer
i think of your face
cause you take me with you, and i drift away
i can not escape

whats this "cosmetic bowling"

Sat, 24 Jan 2004 05:45:16 GMT

tonight was much better than i thought it would be. suzanne and i watched donnie darko. and i learned that i cant bowl at all cos we went with kim and her man. and i suck.

i want to just sleep down here in my basement.forever.

we wish we never knew what it was like to have someone because now we know what we're missing.

i'm so glad someone understands me. it's nice to not be alone in my pessimistic views that are just too true for people to accept.

my mom. shes tough. so she makes me have to be. i'm thankful for that sometimes. i'm glad she doesnt let me feel sorry for myself.

i'm taking a break for a while.

dont mess up my interval!

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 00:08:11 GMT

today was weird. i was half asleep in agebra2 and had no idea what was going on. but i think i figured it out when i woke up.

i'm at the point where both optimism and pessimism annoy me equally.

and i feel very immobile because everytime i move my neck around my collarbone really hurts and i hope i didnt do anything bad.

jon burned me a cd today so that was very cool.

i am
so cold.

my heart wants to work in slow motion.

i just read a poem i wrote when i was 10 and laughed for 5 minutes.
and at the end of the word document i wrote it in, it says
"YEA BABYYYYY!!!"

wow. i, am so cool..

webbed feet/toes

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 22:26:16 GMT

so matt is my new friend and he is way cool. except his phone just died.

i talked to my bffgirl today on the phone this morning. and i should probably be working on my yearbook project, my math homework, or studying for bio.

i'm gonna paint my nails though.

um. i'm lazy