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i have a new journal, this one is way old.
it's located here
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) singunderwater
its friends only, so comment and i will gladly add you if you arent already
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| oh say say say |
[20 Feb 2004|11:21pm] |
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tonight was so fun me & fred hung out at her house and she helped me make a neato skirt but it needs to be repaired and we pranced around and modeled in thermal underwear. how cool is that?
my best friend is the coolest kid ever, cos we laugh like so hard i nearly cry like the whole time we hang out.
i was looking at my journal entry from one year ago. the snow day. that makes me sad. yeah. i remember when josh told me about what his mom said about me. i remember how i cared what people thought about me, even people who didn't know me and judged me like that. now i could care less, i'm much more opinionated and much more me. and so much less of anyone else.
i know from my own experience that you have to really not care about a person in order for you to shut them out of your life completely. dont lie to me, its your fault.
that's for several people.
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| it's the fact that we're gonna get down to it.. |
[19 Feb 2004|02:57pm] |
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something about this time of year, between february and march makes me so optimistic. it's like i almost can't help smiling.
maybe it's the fact that when i look outside i think of the past and think of what i once had. and i guess something struck me, that one day i will feel that way again. and i could even make it better if i wanted.
and i'm not alone.
<3
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| roll on top of me baby yeah just roll roll roll |
[17 Feb 2004|06:05pm] |
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no i dont enjoy hypocrites
or when people dont know what in the world theyre talking about
but pretend they do wiaoehuwe
say what you want but only i know what you told me and that you've used the same lines over and over.
my hair looks so gross
i'm cutting my bangs soon
i like the classes i chose next year
i have to think about what i want to do when im older
i also have to think about what i want to do now
i havent quite found my 'niche' and oh yes i hate that word
thanks to bio i hate you die.
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| happy valentine's day loves. |
[14 Feb 2004|11:02pm] |
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this is old but i've never posted one before. <3xox hope everyone had a great day love you.
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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| just one thing makes me forget.. |
[12 Feb 2004|02:53pm] |
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so yesterday was the last swim meet. it's kind of sad because i actually liked swimming this year a lot.
i only swam in a relay but still it was cool. i'm gonna miss it! how sad. i need a new activity because i am going to be so bored.
( bus pictures )
so yeah. other than that drivers ed is boring and i need to print out a current event right now. yea tomorrow is friday!@* haute. guess who's working on valentine's day sat haha. <3 be my valentine, everyone.
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| i wanted you, i needed you |
[11 Feb 2004|02:27pm] |
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i love today. you know why? cos i love:
- getting an a and a smiley face sticker on my english test
- hugs
- last swim meet tonight
- friends
- learning nothing in mr. mo's class
- half empty buses
- intellectual conversations/being right!!
- not having a lot of homework
today i'm in a really good mood. it doesn't feel like a wednesday though. i'm happy with many aspects right now. this new semester seems promising.
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| get me some tylenol |
[10 Feb 2004|06:15am] |
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i am back and better than ever yeaahwhat.
<3
i like tea in the morning.
school won't be fun today.
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| i'm a vicious admirer. |
[08 Feb 2004|05:08pm] |
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a sickness is plaguing my house. so i'm in hiding. and i'm not allowed to eat either. i wash my hands hourly. i fear being sick.
snoopy wants a kiss. but really i do. sigh. sadly there is no love in my life.
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| youre such a girl. |
[05 Feb 2004|05:17pm] |
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i like all my new classes a lot. mr.morowski is really cool. although i don't know how much i will enjoy chemistry at 730 in the morning.
tomorrow is my test on a separate peace. i'm scared.
ouch. i hate thinking about some things. i dont know why i even try to understand certain people. i'm sure they know me well enough to know i analyze anything and everything. but some people just aren't worth the effort, although they may think they are.
it's one thing to just be a complicated person. but it's another to play mind games and confuse people for no apparent reason. goodbye? who knows.
done caring. xo
sometimes i feel like i'm practically begging to be understood.
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| you started the fire in my heart |
[04 Feb 2004|09:11pm] |
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so my icon is scary just to break the cycle of stupid looking serious icons. so ha ha in your face. support the mad icon look, haha <3
today i went to the mall with suzanne. i bought new shoes, earrings, lip gloss & eyeshadow stuff i'll probably never use, and a shirt. yeah i am a shopaholic and it makes me happy to an unbelievable extent.
then i received a phone call from the lovely macho morgan. "look at him..he looks like an untamed beast" haha youre a crazy boy, you make me laugh.
we lost the meet against toms river north tonight. i didn't swim. its kinda sad. i got my hooded sweatshirt so whatever its all good haha. i'm sure kim and i will live in ours for now on
tomorrow=ailseyuiwqeyawe yeayea. new classes. yikesss.
i have my plan for valentines day with my bff. ow ow. paper shredder likewhat.
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| you know the drill. |
[03 Feb 2004|03:06pm] |
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i almost missed my bus again today..yikes.
i'm so glad finals are over. history seemed to go okay.
swim meet in an hour. tomorrow is transition day. amazing. going shopping i hope cos i need to desperately. lately i've been thinking of what to do to occupy my time, something new. i'm silly cos i always always always say the same thing. so repetitive. so dishonest. sigh.
i'm going to miss mr. williams class. "candid shoe photos" today haha. i'm gonna miss meghan. and our lunch crew. and telling them my little isignificant stories and problems.
second semester:bring it on,bitch.
it's raining and i like it..
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( just too cool for youu. )
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| i carry on without your face.. |
[02 Feb 2004|04:40pm] |
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math & bio finals today. i think i did well on math. but bio was really difficult. hm. i hope it is curved. last night i talked to my dad and it helped me put everything into perspective. about basically my life in general.
everything feels really comfortable right now. i like it this way, i hate all the ups & downs.
jon gives the best advice in the whole world ever ^2836237623. yeah. thank you.
tonight i have to studystudystudy for history. took pictures today, no idea why. i guess to break the monotony of studying.
( what do you really see. )
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| our memory defeats us all |
[01 Feb 2004|06:30am] |
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i don't think i can function on 5 hours of sleep anymore.
novice meet today i'm leaving in a halfhour. i hope kim is there. i need caffeine desperately right now. i don't know how i'm going to study for finals when i get home.
2 weeks and all of this will be over. i remember when i thought swimming was so wonderful and looked forward to it. now i look forward to sleeping because i never get to.
i want something tangible. nothing feels real cos every day is a blur when you look like you're going to pass out all day but you never get a chance to.
i hate being surrounded with people who can't seem to understand me.
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| every single thing you do. |
[30 Jan 2004|06:25am] |
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its a little toooo colddd.
:(((
im eating waffles. and chocolate milk. cos im crazy. & i do not want to swim today
rescue me?
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| you've stolen my heart. |
[29 Jan 2004|05:27pm] |
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we dissected the pig in bio. so i've felt nauseous all day
especially when danny said the brown stuff inside looked like gravy
and sage said the small intestine looked like chinese food
i wanted to die
except not really
but i could barely eat after that
and on the bus suzanne lied to me
and told me she had arthritis
because that crazy girl wrote 'ow' on her knuckle.
im gonna get you back ok. with my made up stories you always believe.
i am so tired
i want to do my hw so i can talk to matt later.
:)))
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| how can i say i love you back? |
[27 Jan 2004|03:49pm] |
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so i failed my biology test. smooth. heres to being stupid in an honors class.
i used to be different, though. i didn't have to try and i never had to worry about grades. not that i dont care now, but when i do poorly i choose not to do anything about it. it bothers me. it just really isn't worth it anymore. everything is so stressful because i want to live up to my own expectations but my failure to do so has gotten me so discouraged over the past few months.
i just feel like i'm trying so hard yet i'm accomplishing nothing. it really isn't paying off. and i'm really not enjoying myself.
i have to get more involved. i have to stop being lazy. i have to volunteer and stay after and care about my grades and care about getting in honor society next year and care about being smart doing well on the SAT's learning vocabulary have to buy SAT prep computer games notecards take classes because i "dont do well on standardized tests" have to read more study more learn more care more be happy less.
smile.
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